Hello everyone, my name is Mara and I'm a new poster to this blog. I am an incest survivor and also a date rape survivor. I grew up orthodox and I'm struggling with observance. I'm not sure if this is something meaningful for me to hold on to, or whether to just let go. I am very angry: at my abuser, at the community for sheltering people like that, and at myself. I am also very sad. I'm depressed. Well I guess that's enough for an introduction.