Learning To Trust
How do you learn to trust after everything in your world feels like it was shattered?
How do you know who you can share personal things about yourself?
What would you do if those personal things you shared with a trusting friend was shared with others?
How do you know who you're friends really are?
How do you know who you can share personal things about yourself?
What would you do if those personal things you shared with a trusting friend was shared with others?
How do you know who you're friends really are?
posted by Jewish Survivors at Monday, February 28, 2005
7 Comments:
The first person I really trusted was a rabbi who was helping me work through some issues. He gained my trust and then molested me.
Several years later, I finally felt ready to date again. I met a guy who seemed safe. He date-raped me.
I do have friends but I keep everyone at arm's length. How can I ever trust? I built a wall around my heart so thick, I don't know if I'll ever be able to break through it.
I don't think I will ever trust anyone again. I'll always be protecting myself, always be on the lookout. On the outside I look OK but inside I'm shattered into a million pieces.
I feel as you do. I have friends, and I know they feel close to me. The problem is that I can't reciprocate. I've turned something off inside me. I just go through the motions. The first person I trusted was a therapist. He never was abusive in any way. But he moved and I had to continue my therapy with someone else. The same thing kept happening to me. I felt abandoned. I felt like a foster child must feel, going from home to home.
I don't think it's possible for me to trust anyone again. I don't know if I can ever feel safe enough to share my soul, or inner most thoughts again.
Off Topic:
Please make two posts, one on the article Vicki sent out "Finding a Rabbi: Tips for Surivors of Sexual Violence"
and
Luke Ford's recent entry on the various rabbis who are trying to bring down the Awareness Center.
Thanks.
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How can I ever trust again? Why would I want to?
I have friends, there are wonderful people in my life.
But would I totally trust them?
How long until they betray me too?
I emulate Fox Mulder, and "trust no one."
You have to trust someone some time, or else you live your life in total isolation. How do you get over the hurdle?
It's lonely when you can't allow yourself to trust.
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